Be Selfish

Be selfish
Pamper yourself,

fall in love
let yourself crash

laugh out loud..
have the best time of your life every second

be silly
dance around without a worry in your head

take pride in yourself
never be alone even when no one else is there

fly high.
whistle loud

Have no regrets
no unshed tears

Don’t curb
let noone else tell you what you can and cant do

Be selfish.

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Ramblings of a Silly Wife

After working in the same office for over 2 years my awesome darling (stupid) husband recently decided to move to a different company and hence a different office. While I am a big fan of NASA, I don’t necessarily agree with the self proclaimed wise people when they say space is good in a relationship.

The stupid poem I sent him yesterday:

I wait for it to be five like crazy
Oh cruel love of mine..
Why do you go away from me
everyday after nine..

I miss you, my mister,
those eyes, how they wink and twinkle and shine
I miss the cute emoticons
while chatting with you online

I miss bitching about same people
How we used to crib and whine
Work on crazy ideas together
we were partners in crime

I want to be with you every minute, every second
Your presence as intoxicating as old vine
Oh cruel love of mine, then tell me..
why do you have to go away from me everyday .. after nine.

All that matters

All that matters is your saying “good girl”
after smallest of things I do..
All that matters is your stupid jokes
when I am extremely mad at you..

All that matters is your smile,
and kind words combined..
All that matters is your flirty look, when I
have thousand other things on my mind..

All that matters is us laughing crazy
bedtime in the nights..
All that matters is our patching up quick
after all the silly fights..

All that matters is your warm hug,
at the end of each day..
All that matters is your kiss each and every morning,
it never gets cliche.

All that matters is you still love me..
after all this time..
All that matters is that you still make me want to ..
write poems and make them rhyme.

Longing

To decipher it I find hard, I fail to comprehend..
A feeling so strange, I cant quite befriend.

it sinks me to the depths, it takes me beyond higher..
It mourns for a loss, or pines with desire.

Hidden deep in the darkness.. it beams,
It dwells in my silence.. A longing so loud, it screams.

When you are with me..

This is the latest painting I have made. This is probably the first abstract art I have made.

I guess there might be other ways to interpret it. However, this is my interpretation:

When you are with me..

I feel wind in my hair..
sun shining in the sky,
bubbles in my heart..
a fluttering butterfly.

I see no color..
feel their vibrance on my skin,
feel the calm of nothingness..
somewhere deep within.

Everything feels dreamy..
it is all surreal,
I am blind to the world..
I can only feel.

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P.S: I am aware there is no word like “vibrance”. I just like the way it sounds. Much like Shakespeare I like to invent words 😀 . Also, there is reflection of the window on the glass frame, hence this photo of the painting is not that great ( the painting looks much better, me thinks 😀 )

Acquaintance with love

“It is nice meeting you”, i tell him..
he asks “how nice..”
“My heart is filled with bliss
and my tummy butterflies..”

“See what i got for you” he says
“check in my bag what lies..”
I answer as sweet I can..
“Sheer your presence would suffice”

“I have with me calm of your heart
and end of all your sighs..
I bring joy with me,
I am happiness in disguise..”

I wonder at my luck ..
I look at him with surprise
Take a minute to believe it all
and thank him for the precious prize..

“Promise me you wont go”,
I say tears in my eyes..
He looks at me,
takes my hands and smiles..
“I am here to stay.. my darling..
Until the end of days arrives..”

Dear 2009

Dear 2009,

I thought saying bye to you would be easy, its not..
I thought I’d try and forgive you.. I don’t think i can..

How could you be so cold hearted..
so ruthless to take away what mattered most..
so selfish to ensure that you ll shadow over for all the years yet to come..

Maybe you never meant to be this hurtful.
Maybe its not your fault.
But i know I am going to hate you for the rest of my life..

I wish you had never come into my life.
I wish i could erase you from the timeline.
I truly wish from the core of my heart you never existed.

I wish i could say i am glad you are over, but i know you are not.
I know you will stay with me and haunt me forever…

– Monika