Be Selfish

Be selfish
Pamper yourself,

fall in love
let yourself crash

laugh out loud..
have the best time of your life every second

be silly
dance around without a worry in your head

take pride in yourself
never be alone even when no one else is there

fly high.
whistle loud

Have no regrets
no unshed tears

Don’t curb
let noone else tell you what you can and cant do

Be selfish.

Ramblings of a Silly Wife

After working in the same office for over 2 years my awesome darling (stupid) husband recently decided to move to a different company and hence a different office. While I am a big fan of NASA, I don’t necessarily agree with the self proclaimed wise people when they say space is good in a relationship.

The stupid poem I sent him yesterday:

I wait for it to be five like crazy
Oh cruel love of mine..
Why do you go away from me
everyday after nine..

I miss you, my mister,
those eyes, how they wink and twinkle and shine
I miss the cute emoticons
while chatting with you online

I miss bitching about same people
How we used to crib and whine
Work on crazy ideas together
we were partners in crime

I want to be with you every minute, every second
Your presence as intoxicating as old vine
Oh cruel love of mine, then tell me..
why do you have to go away from me everyday .. after nine.

All that matters

All that matters is your saying “good girl”
after smallest of things I do..
All that matters is your stupid jokes
when I am extremely mad at you..

All that matters is your smile,
and kind words combined..
All that matters is your flirty look, when I
have thousand other things on my mind..

All that matters is us laughing crazy
bedtime in the nights..
All that matters is our patching up quick
after all the silly fights..

All that matters is your warm hug,
at the end of each day..
All that matters is your kiss each and every morning,
it never gets cliche.

All that matters is you still love me..
after all this time..
All that matters is that you still make me want to ..
write poems and make them rhyme.

Web comic

After spending definitely unjustifiable number of hours on xkcd, questinablecontent, abstrusegoose, phdcomics etc etc got inspired to work on my own Web Comic. “Before and After”. Check it out here: Link to Comic

I think its hilarious :D:D. I am planning to update one comic everyday. Very optimistic goal 🙂

Longing

To decipher it I find hard, I fail to comprehend..
A feeling so strange, I cant quite befriend.

it sinks me to the depths, it takes me beyond higher..
It mourns for a loss, or pines with desire.

Hidden deep in the darkness.. it beams,
It dwells in my silence.. A longing so loud, it screams.

When you are with me..

This is the latest painting I have made. This is probably the first abstract art I have made.

I guess there might be other ways to interpret it. However, this is my interpretation:

When you are with me..

I feel wind in my hair..
sun shining in the sky,
bubbles in my heart..
a fluttering butterfly.

I see no color..
feel their vibrance on my skin,
feel the calm of nothingness..
somewhere deep within.

Everything feels dreamy..
it is all surreal,
I am blind to the world..
I can only feel.

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P.S: I am aware there is no word like “vibrance”. I just like the way it sounds. Much like Shakespeare I like to invent words 😀 . Also, there is reflection of the window on the glass frame, hence this photo of the painting is not that great ( the painting looks much better, me thinks 😀 )

Acquaintance with love

“It is nice meeting you”, i tell him..
he asks “how nice..”
“My heart is filled with bliss
and my tummy butterflies..”

“See what i got for you” he says
“check in my bag what lies..”
I answer as sweet I can..
“Sheer your presence would suffice”

“I have with me calm of your heart
and end of all your sighs..
I bring joy with me,
I am happiness in disguise..”

I wonder at my luck ..
I look at him with surprise
Take a minute to believe it all
and thank him for the precious prize..

“Promise me you wont go”,
I say tears in my eyes..
He looks at me,
takes my hands and smiles..
“I am here to stay.. my darling..
Until the end of days arrives..”

Short story – The Fallen Leaf

Disclaimer: This work is a piece of fiction. 😀

The Fallen Leaf

June 19, 2010
It’s been a week since I saw him last. It seems like yesterday. I remember how he looked. He wore that blue shirt I absolutely love. His hair was all messy, he had not slept all night. I could tell by the way he looked at me that something was terribly wrong. His brown eyes were filled with concern. My heart couldn’t bear that look. Sure, I had seen that look before but it was never this serious. I kept trying to ask him, “What’s wrong baby?” He wouldn’t tell me. He just kept looking at me, holding me in his hands.

June 21, 2010
I lie down here, falling on and off sleep. Without him, life is meaningless. I am a fallen leaf, an empty vase. I feel as if my heart would collapse, as if this darkness will engulf me.

June 23, 2010
It all started when we decided to take the next big step in our relationship. These things are never easy. But I knew I could trust him. I loved him. And I knew, he loved me. Nothing could go wrong. But it did. I don’t blame him. I know in my heart, he must have tried his best to save me. It’s just that sometimes life is not fair.

June 24, 2010
I worry for him. He must be lost without me. There has not been a single day in the past 2 years that he did not meet me, did not hold me in his arms.

June 26, 2010
I miss him. I don’t care what happened, anymore. I am ready to forget it all. If only he would come back.  If only I could hear his voice once more, feel his touch around me. If only things would go back to being the way they were.

June 28, 2010
I opened my eyes, and there he was! Oh! He looked so amazing. His face glowed and his eyes glittered. How dearly I love him! How his touch gives meaning to my very essence. “I missed you so much! I knew you would come back for me.” I said.

He looked at me like he had never seen me before, like I was the most beautiful thing in the world. He stared at me lovingly, held me in his hands, and told me how much he missed me. “Thank god! Finally! I managed to boot you up! I am so sorry! I will never try to install windows on you ever again!“, He said.

I love you baby, no matter what..” I told him.

He picked me up in his arms and headed towards home.

The dream last night – A puzzle story

Heres a silly story i wrote today. I have jumbled it all up! See hints at the end.

  • A butterfly was fluttering around the garden. The cat saw it, jumped on it and scared it!! Bad cat!!!
  • I was so so scared. But then I saw the snowman was wriggling around in my garden and squishing all the pretty flowers. Aaarggghh.. That made me mad and I shouted at him!! He was taken aback, got scared and melted right then and there!
  • I started putting on my shoes in a hurry. (I couldn’t leave them my behind, they were so pretty! )
  • I was outside in my garden, sitting happily and sipping a cup of tea on my fancy table.
  • But just as I was about to make my exit, a very scary  snowman entered my garden!! It went after the tiger.. the tiger whimpered like the cat and ran away..
  • I put on my glasses to make sure that I am not seeing things!! But I was right!!
  • But then came the roar!!! Raaaaaaaoouurrrrrrr!! The cat shrieked and ran away! There was a tiger in my garden!!!
  • And then I woke up 😀
  • Then came the cat. It rushed after the bird and scared it!
  • As I basked in the glory and danced around in my garden.. I realized something was staring at me from far away. I stood still. I kept quiet. It started moving towards me.. For a while I couldn’t make out what it was.. It was all hazy.. and then I saw it.. a white glistening scull.. moving towards me.. slowly.. constantly.. I went numb.. it kept moving.. indefinitely..
  • It was early in the morning.
  • I saw a pretty bird, it was dancing around happily.

Hints:

  • Reorder
  • Notice the bold words in the sentences.
  • Checkout the picture i drew last night, on which my story is based:

And here is the answer:

It was early in the morning. I was outside in my garden, sitting happily and sipping a cup of tea on my fancy table.

I saw a pretty bird, it was dancing around happily. Then came the cat. It rushed after the bird and scared it! A butterfly was fluttering around the garden. The cat saw it, jumped on it and scared it!! Bad cat!!! But then came the roar!!! Raaaaaaaoouurrrrrrr!! The cat shrieked and ran away! There was a tiger in my garden!!! I put on my glasses to make sure that I am not seeing things!! But I was right!!! I started putting on my shoes in a hurry. (I couldn’t leave them my behind, they were so pretty! ). But just as I was about to make my exit, a very scary looking snowman entered my garden!! It went after the tiger.. the tiger whimpered like the cat and ran away.. I was so so scared. But then I saw the snowman was wriggling around in my garden and squishing all the pretty flowers. Aaarggghh.. That made me mad and I shouted at him!! He was taken aback, got scared and melted right then and there!

As I basked in the glory and danced around in my garden.. I realized something was staring at me from far away. I stood still. I kept quiet. It started moving towards me.. For a while I couldn’t make out what it was.. It was all hazy.. and then I saw it.. A white glistening scull.. moving towards me.. slowly.. constantly.. I went numb.. it kept moving.. indefinitely..

And then I woke up 😀

Dear 2009

Dear 2009,

I thought saying bye to you would be easy, its not..
I thought I’d try and forgive you.. I don’t think i can..

How could you be so cold hearted..
so ruthless to take away what mattered most..
so selfish to ensure that you ll shadow over for all the years yet to come..

Maybe you never meant to be this hurtful.
Maybe its not your fault.
But i know I am going to hate you for the rest of my life..

I wish you had never come into my life.
I wish i could erase you from the timeline.
I truly wish from the core of my heart you never existed.

I wish i could say i am glad you are over, but i know you are not.
I know you will stay with me and haunt me forever…

– Monika

Silly Self-Obsessesive Poem

Wrote this while waiting for a meeting to start in office. hee hee. its silly 😀

Once upon a time there was a king,
He fell in love with a girl so amazing,
He gave away each and everything,
His cape, his crown and his ring,
Be it autumn, winter or refreshing spring..
Be it summer or be it raining,
Late night and early morning..
All he did was dance and sing..
“Monika…. Oh my darling!!!”

Blue Sky

There were times when the sky was blue,
Bright and lush and free..
And then came the times when it turned grey..
Dark and stormy and scary..

Now i keep put, under this roof of mine,
Cozy and warm and dry,
Just one thing i miss..
Sight of that amazing, carefree, crazy sky..

Painting

Spent the whole day sleeping . Cooked dinner. And painted after a loong time!! i love the easel my friends gave to me on my birthday! It s totally adjustable and i can paint while sitting on a chair as well. I love colouring!! mixing different colours and getting different shades. One thing i have always noticed is that my final painting always comes out different from what i had imagined. Also I need to work on my outlines, and try not smudging them. Note to self : Get bigger sheets to draw on.

To blog or not to blog

I have often wondered why i don’t keep a blog. Maybe because i am lazy, maybe because i don’t know what to write, because i think its useless or maybe because i am just too possessive about my “dear diary” and i just don’t want to share it. A lot of reasons not to write, just one for actually sitting and doing it. It sounds like fun, it does. (and i am really bored.)
I have always liked writing poems since the time i used to write for my dad, it is another thing that nobody except him has liked reading them. Anyways here is a sincere effort to keep the rhyming alive. If you read it in a sing song voice you might actually like it.

To write about the way i feel or about the daily deal,
Do i let the words just flow, or think and write real slow..

Do i talk about my friends or about the latest trends,
look back and ponder what i lost, or predict yahoo-microsoft,

Do i really have to share or just beat around here and there,
Do i have to make my poem rhyme(:d) or random scribble will be fine,

Can i crib about my boss and indulge in the latest goss(ip)
Or should i worry people would get cross,

Am i allowed to copy paste or be original even if it is a waste..
Do i run a spell check before, or use instead b4..

Should i confess my fears, or boast about my dares
let you know i m confused, or say who cares,

Or i just not worry, don’t fumble or prepare,
Blog what i want, whatever i want to share..